11.33pm, i can hear the soft ryhthm of the rain hitting againts the roof as i recalled what happened today. Yes, today was an ironic day with many unexpected events.
The day started with me waking up late. I lazily reached accross the table for my phone to check the time. I forced one eye open to take a peep. Holly shit its 8.07am. Immediately i jumped out of bed and ran downstairs to switch on the wireless modem so that i can log in and pretend that i'm working while getting ready for work. I pressed the "ON" button on my laptop, but instead of the the normal IBM startup logo, there was this message on the top left hand corner of the screen blinking at me. It spelled "fan error"....what the heck is that? Shit my laptop died on me. I got ready for work in haste and sent my laptop to the PC centre for repair. Luckily it was just the fan that was broken. The rest of the day was as normal, lots of work and lunch with Keith and co.
Well, I wasn't exactly happy happy today and was super quiet as i was still holding a grudge againts ***** for not being frank and straightforward with me, or he forgot what he said. Anyway till now i haven't straightened the matter because i do not know what approach i should take. Should i be frank and tell him that i'm offended? - in which he'll think that i'm too sensitive and touchy (which i'm not, in fact i think that the matter is no biggie, just that he should be a man and admit his mistake) or should i just keep quiet - but then he'll be oblivious to his mistake and just continue repeating it.
It was almost the end of the day when an annonymous freind IM me about another more annonymous freind, telling me about what the boyfriend did to her and lied about it. As usual girls back girls up and we started cursing the guy and that's how the MSN equation came up. Guys = Jerk + Idiot + Hypocrites + Dumb (no offence guys, we're just mad for a while)
At the end of the day ***** came to my cube and ask me when i could be done. I said 15 mins more. At this point i would like to stress, when i say 15 mins and you say u'll wait for me, i expect you to be waiting for me after 15 mins. I dun care what you do in between but after 15 mins u should be back...unless u tell me hey i need more time. Sigh...ok ok maybe i was too sensitive. We have handphone nowadays right? Just call....but as i said i'm a little on the edge today.
We walked to the car park together, had a conversation with a big misunderstanding which i did not realized. Aparently he was asking me something and i just walked off. Which i did not because i actually did not hear the question. So someone sulked and went home (left me waiting at the roadside for half an hour), and did not answer my calls for half an hour. I was boiling mad when i found out that he went home and left me there!
Like i said, i can never stay angry for more than a few hours. After some time, i rationalized. I know i may have been a little touchy today. I do put down my pride and admit my mistakes. I even apologized for accidentally walking away. But for *****, he did not. Not only did he not admit his mistakes, he can't even push aside his pride to forgive me for a moment. At times like this i really wonder how much he really cares for me deep inside. I used the word deep because i know he generally cares a lot. But deep as in when things really happens, like a fight between both of us, is he going to be the knight in shining armor that saves me or prosecutes me?
Somehow i felt that i was prosecuted today.
No comments:
Post a Comment