Pls pause life for a while

Seconds, minutes and hours of today is ticking away.....
I’m losing control over myself. I’m damn sad by that fact. I have no idea why this is happening to me. I’m baffled for I have nothing whatsoever to be sad about. I’ve been through a lot of though times; I’ve always been able to handle the worse conditions with a calm mind. But nowadays it feels as if I’m on an emotional roller coaster. I can be happy, sad, tired, restless, and crappy all in one day.

I feel like eating a lot, feel like having a quarter pounder burger with fried wedges and a cold beer. Then drive somewhere peaceful and just sit and do nothing. I wish that my life will pause just for a few hours. I’m just so tired….

This is a joke...real joke.

Leona Lewis - Bleeding Love lyrics

Closed off from love I didn't need the pain

Once or twice was enough And it was all in vain

Time starts to pass Before you know it you're frozen

But something happened For the very first time with you

My heart melts into the ground Found something true

And everyone's looking round Thinking I'm going crazy

***

But I don't care what they say I'm in love with you

They try to pull me away But they don't know the truth

My heart's crippled by the vein That I keep on closing

You cut me open and I Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love

I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love

Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open

***

Trying hard not to hear But they talk so loud

Their piercing sounds fill my ears Try to fill me with doubt

Yet I know that the goal Is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater Than the rush that comes with your embrace

And in this world of loneliness I see your face

Yet everyone around me Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

***

But I don't care what they say I'm in love with you

They try to pull me away But they don't know the truth

My heart's crippled by the vein That I keep on closing

You cut me open and I Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love

I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love

Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open

***

And it's draining all of me

Oh they find it hard to believe

I'll be wearing these scars For everyone to see

***

I don't care what they say I'm in love with you

They try to pull me away But they don't know the truth

My heart's crippled by the vein That I keep on closing

You cut me open and I Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love

I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love

Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open and I Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love

I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love

Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open and I Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love

OneRepublic - Stop And Stare

This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us

It's time to make our move, I'm shakin off the rust

I've got my heart set on anywhere but here

I'm staring down myself, counting up the years

Steady hands, just take the wheel...

And every glance is killing me

Time to make one last appeal... for the life I lead

Stop and stare I think I'm moving but I go nowhere

Yeah I know that everyone gets scared

But I've become what I can't be, oh

Stop and stare You start to wonder why you're 'here' not there

And you'd give anything to get what's fair

But fair ain't what you really need

Oh, can u see what I see

They're tryin to come back, all my senses push

Un-tie the weight bags, I never thought I could...

Steady feet, don't fail me now

Gonna run till you can't walk But something pulls my focus out

And I'm standing down...

Stop and stare I think I'm moving but I go nowhere

Yeah I know that everyone gets scared

But I've become what I can't be, oh

Stop and stare You start to wonder why you're here not there

And you'd give anything to get what's fair

But fair ain't what you really need

Oh, you don't need What u need, what u need...

Stop and stare I think I'm moving but I go nowhere

Yeah I know that everyone gets scared

But I've become what I can't be

Oh, do u see what I see...

Mystery of the Outside Girl

Apr 01'08 - In response to the call for help in the post below, 3 investigators - KL, YN and ML began to investigate the matter seriously. In just about 2 hours (mainly due to YN’s slow processing power), they successfully nailed the case. The power of intelligence was used to decipher the meaning of “outside”; which was the clue that provided the ultimate breakthrough that cracked the case.

Here's a picture of the suspect.
Note: Parts of the photo has been censored to protect the identity and privacy of the suspect.

If anyone knows who it is please tell me....

WF [9:01 AM]:
May Leng
‎‎ML‎‎ [9:01 AM]:
wassup? heard rumor u got gf d…betul kah?
‎‎WF [9:01 AM]:
u say is rumors mah
‎‎ML‎‎ [9:02 AM]:
got rumor means got some truth in it la
if there's no wind the grass won't bend
WF [9:05 AM]:
who is the one giving this idea?
‎‎ML‎‎ [9:06 AM]:
got my sources la … so i ma come confide in you see if its true lor
since u say not true....i beleive u la no point lying bout it also
‎‎WF [9:06 AM]:
hehe did i deny ? i didnt rite
‎‎ML‎‎ [9:07 AM]:
congratulations man...who is it ha?
‎‎WF [9:10 AM]:
hahaha u will find out soon enuff
‎‎ML‎‎ [9:11 AM]:
soon like...u tell me now?
‎‎WF [9:11 AM]:
no... tell u also i dont think u know
‎‎ML‎‎ [9:11 AM]:
don't tell how u know i dunno?
‎‎WF [9:11 AM]:
u will see lah
‎‎ML‎‎ [9:11 AM]:
since i dunno u should tell right?
‎‎WF [9:12 AM]:
or u find out ur self la, ask the source - the one tat tell u
‎‎ML‎‎ [9:12 AM]:
dun paiseh la...come on we've been frens since forever
‎‎WF [9:12 AM]:
he should know
‎‎ML‎‎ [9:12 AM]:
my source dunno...tats why ask me come on be a good sport
‎‎WF [9:12 AM]:
hehehe i dont believe ur source dont know
‎‎ML‎‎ [9:13 AM]:
really he dunno..
‎‎WF [9:13 AM]:
then ask him work harder la
‎‎ML‎‎ [9:13 AM]:
wei....teng teng.... tell la tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell tell
outside wan?
‎‎WF [9:14 AM]:
yeah
‎‎ML‎‎ [9:14 AM]:
let me guess....from school wan? suki poh?
‎‎WF [9:15 AM]:
nope
‎‎ML‎‎ [9:15 AM]:
since from outside i most probably dunno wan so u can tell me the name
‎‎WF [9:16 AM]:
hahaha nice try
‎‎ML‎‎ [9:16 AM]:
at least the initials?
‎‎WF [9:17 AM]:
wah u penyiasat ar
‎‎ML‎‎ [9:17 AM]:
curious ma...
‎‎WF [9:17 AM]:
u tell me how told u this news and i will give u some hint
‎‎ML‎‎ [9:17 AM]:
i tell u u tell me ha...no hint
‎‎WF [9:18 AM]:
no i mean how is the one telling u about this news... ur source i mean
then i will give u a hint in return loh
‎‎ML‎‎ [9:19 AM]:
ok...annonymous said, " eh ur fren...WF got gf already is it?"
ok ur turn to hint
‎‎WF [9:19 AM]:
hahaha.... i wan the name
‎‎ML‎‎ [9:19 AM]:
u tell me first la
‎‎WF [9:19 AM]:
no
‎‎ML‎‎ [9:20 AM]:
cannot la...i cannot betray my source wan
why u dating so secretive wan?
u not proud of your gf meh?
‎‎WF [9:21 AM]:
Hehehe is not tat...
‎‎ML‎‎ [9:22 AM]:
then u should tell the whole world...
‎‎WF [9:22 AM]:
Yeah my parents and relatives knows about her
‎‎ML‎‎ [9:23 AM]:
sigh...i give up la. since u want to keep it secret bo pian
‎‎WF [9:23 AM]:
Hahaha try harder to find out la
‎‎ML‎‎ [9:24 AM]:
How I know maybe u playboy wanna keep dating low profile. okla i respect ur decision
‎‎WF [9:24 AM]:
if tell u no fun for u de
‎‎ML‎‎ [9:24 AM]:
u think this is very fun a?
WF [9:26 AM]:
hahaha..... open ur ears & eyes bigger la
‎‎ML‎‎ [9:26 AM]:
hey...u r my fren u expect me to hear from others
what kind of logic is this?
its like u r pregnant and u expect ur mom to hear it from the market aunty
‎‎WF [9:27 AM]:
tat is y i want to know who tell u mah so in return i give u a hint loh but u dont want
‎‎ML‎‎ [9:27 AM]:
i dowan hint i want to know the name
‎‎WF [9:29 AM]:
u going for fred wedding?
‎‎ML‎‎ [9:29 AM]:
....... u expect me to wait till then a?
~nvm la i give up...u win
‎‎WF [9:30 AM]:
i m asking r u going or not
‎‎ML‎‎ [9:30 AM]:
trying to change subject? ya i'm going
‎‎WF [9:30 AM]:
then u will see her loh
‎‎ML‎‎ [9:31 AM]:
ok i'm gonna repeat what i predicted and said above...
‎‎ML‎‎ [9:29 AM]:
....... u expect me to wait till then a?
~nvm la i give up...u win

Maggi Mee and Coffee Part 2

Maggi Mee and Coffee ~~~ again?

Maggi Mee and Coffee Part 1

Eigh? Why got picture of white coffee and cendawan chicken flavour maggi mee? Mmm....sure got special story behind it wan but i'm not gonna tell now coz i'm "supposed" to be busy with my thesis...haha. Will tell the story next time...stay tuned. :*

Crappy Mood

Feeling crappy in the wee hours of the morning...so talking loads of crap.

My April 14th List

I'm damn sad la.... nowadays life is damn boring (all work and no play). So close to nothingless. Sigh....Can't wait to finish my thesis, then i can do all the things that i feel like doing so much now. Why is this sorrowful kesian state happening to me?

In order to make sure I don't forget I'm gonna list down here all the things i want to do after April 13th in random order.

1. Paint my door hot pink
2. Watch Scrubs Season 5 and 6
3. Watch Desperate Housewife Season 3
4. Go Jogging in the morning then go for breakfast
5. Manicure and deco nails with bling bling
6. Furniture shopping - Change bulky table with more chic one
7. Throw away room junk
8. Facial
9. Buy fake eyelashes and learn how to put them on
10. Read my currently stashed away story books
11. Wash my filthy stinky car
12. Change alarm clock battery
13. Go swim in my new hot pink bikini - (KL thanks for buyin - we go bikini swimming together when u r back k?)

Unwanted Attention from Men

Haha...This happens to girls all the time be it the catcalls by the roadside, some stupid pickup lines at a club or unwanted attention at work. Don't get us wrong guys, we girls DO like attention from guys. But it must be the right attention from the right guys. Not some loony that doesn't understand the meaning of "go-away and leave me alone". Nevertheless, this video comforted me about an incident that happened to me recently. I thought my case was bad, but this is far worse. If i'm her, i'll walk out on the date and ask the guy to go jump off the highest building he can find (to safe the rest of womankind).

Fisherman + Dead Sotong = ???

Another funny clip from Xiaxue. The part about fisherman and what they do with dead sotongs is really hilarious.

Lucky Underwear

Your Lucky Underwear is Green

You're a total go getter who will scrape and crawl to get to the top. And your lucky green underwear will help you get there without a struggle. A fast learner, you enjoy a good mental challenge - whether it's getting your law degree or running a successful business. Sometimes you push too hard to succeed, alienating friends and wearing yourself out in the process. If you want to reach your goals while still maintaining a full life, put on your green underpants. They'll help you slow down and enjoy life.

What Color Is Your Lucky Underwear?

Bikini Wearing Tips

This girl is so so cool. Enjoy the creative bikini wearing tips.

Step 1: Pull the bikini pads apart
Step 2: Tie straps across back
Step 3: Tie the bikini in front
Step 4: Adjust cleavage accordingly

Lyrics - My Summer Love - Emi Fujita

Summer sunshine peeking through my door, time to wake up;
Put on something cool and pretty now, a little makeup;
Out on the wharf is an ocean breeze, hardly a cloud above;
And I'm on my way to you my summer love.

Strangers on the pathway seem to smile, like they know me;
Laughing chiledren holding seashells, they want to show me;
*Candy and soda and ice-cream cones, but that's not what i'm thinking of;
I'm on my way to you my summer love.

I see you standing on the corner;
Where the broadwalk meets the sand;
Call your name and you smile at me;
Then you're in my arms again, holding my hand.*

Gliding down the street i know our hearts are together;
Hoping that this magic day will go on forever;
Ppl may tell us that we're too young;
But i know that we're old enough;
And I love you my own true summer love.

Can't sleep...

For some reason I can't sleep. It's already 3am on a Monday morning. My conscience tells me that I need to get a shuteye soon as tomorrows a working day. But I’m still lying wide awake on my bed unable to fall asleep listening to the soft and melodic voice of Emi Fujita singing First of May playing in the background.

When I was small, and Christmas trees were tall,
We used to love while others used to play.
Don’t ask me why, but time has passed us by,
Some one else moved in from far away.

Now we are tall, and Christmas trees are small,
And you don’t ask the time of day.
But you and I, our love will never die,
But guess we’ll cry come first of may.

The apple tree that grew for you and me,
I watched the apples falling one by one.
And I recall the moment of them all,
The day I kissed your cheek and you were mine.

Feeling a little feverish as it’s time to for another dosage of medication, but too lazy to get out of bed. Sigh….how I wish I had another day of weekend.
Hmmm really need to force myself to sleep. But no idea how….

True Love Ways (Buddy Holly)

Yes you know why
Why you and I
Will by and by
Know true love ways.

Sometimes we'll sigh
Sometimes we'll cry
And we'll know why Just you and I
Know true love ways.

Throughout the days
Our true love ways
Will bring us joy to share
With those who really care.

Sometimes we'll sigh
Sometimes we'll cry
And we'll know why Just you and I
Know true love ways.(Instrumental Interlude)

Throughout the days
Our true love ways
Will bring us joy to share
With those who really care.

Sometimes we'll sigh
Sometimes we'll cry
And we'll know why Just you and I
Know true love ways.

Vincent

Ever heard of the song "Vincent" by Don McLean? It’s a classic piece that will always remain on my favorite song list. The reason I love this song so much is because of its wonderful lyrics. This is the only song that I could ever use the word “beautiful” to describe its lyrics.

Nonetheless, whenever I hear this song I could not help but ponder if there are underlying meaning to the poetic words used in this song. Especially at the verse where he mentioned Vincent, I kept wondering who’s Vincent? Lover? Pet? (I thought to myself, most probably it’s a pet since it’s a man singing unless he’s gay) So I decided to do some research tonight, and I found who’s Vincent…dang dang dang (suspense)

Apparently, "Vincent" is a song by Don McLean written as a tribute to Vincent Van Gogh. It is also known by its opening line, "Starry Starry Night", a reference to Van Gogh's painting Starry Night. The song describes different paintings by Van Gogh. Wow, I’m even more in love with this song now….

Starry, starry night.
Paint your palette blue and grey,
Look out on a summer's day,
With eyes that know the darkness in my soul.
Shadows on the hills,
Sketch the trees and the daffodils,
Catch the breeze and the winter chills,
In colors on the snowy linen land.

Now I understand what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they did not know how.
Perhaps they'll listen now.

Starry, starry night.
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze,
Swirling clouds in violet haze,
Reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue.
Colors changing hue, morning field of amber grain,
Weathered faces lined in pain,
Are soothed beneath the artist's loving hand.

Now I understand what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they did not know how.
Perhaps they'll listen now.

For they could not love you,
But still your love was true.
And when no hope was left in sight
On that starry, starry night,
You took your life, as lovers often do.
But I could have told you, Vincent,
This world was never meant for one
As beautiful as you.

Starry, starry night.
Portraits hung in empty halls,
Frameless head on nameless walls,
With eyes that watch the world and can't forget.
Like the strangers that you've met,
The ragged men in the ragged clothes,
The silver thorn of bloody rose,
Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow.

Now I think I know what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they're not listening still.
Perhaps they never will...

Bravo..bravo...sob..sob..

Brain Colour

My Brain is Orange!

Of all the brain types, yours is the quickest.You are usually thinking a mile a minute, and you could be thinking about anything at all.Your thoughts are often scattered and random - but they're also a lot of fun!You tend to spend a lot of time thinking about esoteric subjects, the meaning of life, and pop culture.

What colour's yours? Check it out from the link below.
http://www.blogthings.com/whatcolorisyourbrainquiz/